I was surrounded by brothers and sisters in Christ, worshipping God. The worship team on the platform were talented, gifted and totally given over to worshipping their Lord.
Standing there amongst my fellow believers, I should have been at peace. I should have been able to let go and fully immerse myself in the worship but something held me back….
Why me? I asked myself.
Why would God pick me to lead anyone, to do anything when he has such talented people at his disposal.
Looking around I saw people with incredible gifts. People who, the more I knew about each one of them, the more I discovered amazing talents and abilities which they had hidden beneath the surface.
Looking at them I felt small. Very small. Why me? I wondered. What could I possibly have to offer compared to any one of them.
I’m not writing this because I want to hear a bunch of platitudes, I’m writing it because I wrestled with those thoughts for a long time that day and I know I’m not alone in thinking them.
I have nothing to offer, nothing to give that any one of the people in this room could not do a hundred times better.
So why me?
The answer comes from God:
Because I choose who I will use for each task.
Because I know who is right for this work, in this time, in this place.
Because I know what is needed and who I have gifted with just the right mix of gifts.
Because I do not see things as men do.
Because I alone am God.
I know that God has placed me here, doing this, right now, today and I cannot fathom why… but in the end, I don’t need to know why. I just need to know the answer to these two questions:
- Does God love me and does He love the people He has sent me to?
- Can I trust Him?
It always comes down to those two questions. Does God love me? and can I trust him? If you can know deep in your heart that the answer to those two questions is ‘YES’ then there is never anything else to question, never any need to worry or fear, never any doubt.
God loves me and I trust him.
…and that’s the bottom line. The foundation.
Why me? I really have no idea. Truly, I wouldn’t pick me. God did though, and that’s all I need to know.
12 Reply to “Why me?”
Are you OK Randy?
That was the shortest response you have ever given! 🙂
I think the question is not so much, “Why me?”, as it is “Why not me?”
God knows what He’s doing, Peter, and you are enough because He is more than enough.
Now, stop kicking yourself in the teeth. If not because God said so, because I did.
One thing that I am learning and being blessed with by God is the understanding that He is looking more at our heart and our affetions toward Him than the mere talents and spiritual gifts that He gives us. We can have all the talents and giftedness in the world, but if our heart is not right with God, then he’s not going to let us become anything more for Him. Humility is an awesome power that God has shown me lately. He says that he humbles those who are exalted and exalts those who will humble themself before me. My friend, I beleive God is blessing you b/c you are humbling yourself at His feet perhaps a bit more than the others that you look at outwardly for giftedness. Remember, God’s economy is backwards; while we look out at eachothers talents, abilities, and accomplishments, God is looking inward to see if we really have our heart lined up to His. Blessings of continued humility to you my friend, Robin
I couldn’t agree more Robin!
Sounds like you and I eat at the same lunch table. 🙂 You’re right though, it’s all about trusting Him. I also think somehow you were looking over my shoulder as I was writing my post today- very similar thoughts!
Looking over your shoulder?….. you have no idea! 🙂
Wow, thank you.
If I remember correctly, Moses asked the same question.
And I love that song from Casting Crowns!
Yes he did 🙂
Looks like I’m in good company!