Thank you to everyone for your thoughts and prayers.
I am still mentally out of commission.
I have no idea what’s going on but it’s not fun.
I tried to get back into the game today but crashed and burned so I’m ducking out again.
I appreciate all the comments and emails that I have received, you are a real blessing to me.
I’d love to tell you all what’s going on but I really don’t know. I can’t explain it. Joe Stallard is most probably right, I’m almost certainly under spiritual attack and it’s causing me to not be able to see the battle lines. It’s like there’s a fog there and it’s making it too hard to see.
I wish I could be more precise but I really don’t have anything more precise to tell you right now!
Could you stop by Katie’s site and give her some counsel about relinquishing. I’d love to but I don’t trust myself to think straight about it right now.
God bless
Peter
Continuing to pray for you brother!
Hey Peter! Sorry you’re still in a funk. You should go get your hair cut or your nails done. Wait, that only works for chicks. Sorry, my bad. I don’t mean to make light of your situation, I use humor and sarcasm is just about any situation — appropriate or not. It’s a gift, really.
I popped over to Katie’s blog. I’ll probably go back there later, but right now, the whole “pre-destination” thing makes me want to have a debate, not to give an uplifting comment. So I’ll come back later. Hang in there, homefry.
Keep praying, stay faithful and the Lord will bring you back in under His timing.We will keep banging away until you get back!
I know that feeling Peter and it’s not fun. I don’t know if it helps, but there was a year where I felt similarly to what you describe. I tried to figure it out in so many different ways and attributed it to lots of different things, but God really showed me that this fear and junk was there all along and He was exposing it and dealing with it. THat helped a little, but it still felt horrible throughout the process. Like I said, don’t know if that helps, but I was reminded of it as I read your update.
I’m sure there are lots of spiritual battles as well, but I just pray blessings for you, encouragement and strength. God will use whatever this is and it will be to your good.
Jason
Dude, when you wrote that comment to me about being frazzled I thought you were making a joke since my post was about the mind being a battlefield. I didn’t know you were serious. Please know that you are loved. Just look at all of the comments.
Dear Peter,
I keep checking back, hoping that your situation has changed, and that you’re feeling more yourself…
I am sorry if you are suffering; just know that in God’s economy, nothing is ever wasted. We may never have the privilege of his revealing what certain sorrows or troubles were for, but we can count on the fact that He is good, He is love, and He is *always* working His purpose out (no matter how it may seem to us!)
Relax. God is not surprised and as you should well know, “being a Christian is not about performance.”
I point to Hebrews Chapter 4, the Chapter of rest. The concept of rest. This rest from our own works and efforts remain paramount, even a matter of obedience. From this position of postering before God, we find the scripture becomes alive in that Rhema quickening “where the Word of God seperates between bone and marrow, soul and spirit, and a discerner of the thoughts and intentions of the heart.”
Once this is realized, then a paradigm shift is required. What we see as a decline is actually an incline. What we call fog is the necessity of becoming inactive, so that we do not move from the operatng table of God.
Randy
got nuthin……maybe you don’t need to give us anything here…just breathe….
Here’s an uplifting word that I heard in church recently:
http://adventbirmingham.org/articles.asp?ID=3604
Hope it blesses you as it did me!
Hi Peter,
I hope that you will find peace of mind soon.
If you need someone to talk to feel free to send me an email.
Blessings to you…
–Chris
Philippians 4:19
My prayers are with you and so is my understanding. Sometimes the words just don’t come and nothing seems like you can truly comprehend it. Keep praying to Him and the light will soon shine for you. I will go visit Katie’s site now, thanks for letting us know.
Hey Peter, I’ll keep praying for you. I hope God uses this valley for the good – whether it is long or short lived.
Hi,
I can only tell you that I have experienced this type of deep dark area in my life and can attest that it is draining as well as frightening. We expect God to jump in and rescue us and when He doesnt seem to, we can only wonder why. But in the midst of the darkest area of my life, when I found it almost impossible to even pray, a song came to my heart from way back when I was a child in Sunday School. It was one I hadnt even remembered. I began to sing it, at least the words I could remember, and the darkness began to leave. After that, it still was a slow climb, back to where I needed to be spiritually. But the main thing I learned was that even in the darkest moments, God IS trying to get through to us. It was He who brought that song to my mind. He knew how I was struggling and that I couldnt even pray. He knows our hearts and responds to that in times like this. He WILL and IS responding to you. If you can only focus on His promises and His words, it will bring you through this. My prayers are with you Peter. Know that you have many people praying for you and that alone is very powerful and will help carry you through when you can’t seem to find the words needed to pray. God’s very best to you. Please post when you can to let us know how you are.