It’s Blog Carnival time again. Please stop by Bridget’s site to see all of the wonderful entries into the carnival.
This week’s carnival is on Kindness – something I didn’t think I knew how to write about but I have been shown extraordinary kindness over the past few months and feel that I know at least a little about it now.
A couple of months ago, everything started getting too much for me and I had to draw back from pretty much everything.
I was stressed beyond anything I had experienced before, tired, grouchy and unable to cope with anything. I stopped blogging, stopped tweeting, stopped answering emails, stopped reading blog posts, stopped everything really.
I just couldn’t do it.
That was back in December and I’ve been that way ever since.
Most days, simply answering an email was too stressful for me. I slipped into depression and have been taking medication to try to get me back on track.
What has truly amazed me is the loving kindness shown to me by people I barely even know and most of whom I have never met in person.
It seems that barely a day goes by where I don’t receive an email or tweet from someone somewhere in the world checking up on me and telling me that they’re praying for me.
I’ve broken nearly all the rules of social media by barely blogging and doing poorly written posts when I do, not engaging on facebook or twitter and not connecting with online friends.
Yet for no earthly reason, so many people have stuck by me. It’s amazing.
I don’t add anything to this community, I haven’t been bringing anything of any value to people’s lives and yet there they are, telling me they miss me, praying for me, thinking about me. It’s beyond my comprehension.
The phrase I used just now is probably the key though: “no earthly reason”. You see, in human terms there’s no reason why people I’ve never met would still be praying for me months down the line. In human terms the kindness I’ve been shown is extravagant to say the least.
But many, if not most of the people I’m talking about do not do things on human terms. There is no earthly reason, but there is a heavenly reason.
God shows us his unfailing, unending loving kindness and we cannot help but do the same to each other. What I’ve been experiencing is the Church BEING the Church. Not tearing me down for my failures but lifting me up, not forgetting me and leaving me behind but carrying me through.
I am on the road to recovery. I’ve been able to do some simple things like reply to emails in the last week or so that I haven’t been able to do for a while but it’s a rocky road and sometimes I feel like I take one step forward only to take two BIG steps back.
By the grace of God I’m getting there and I truly appreciate the love, kindness and support shown to me by so many people over the last couple of months.
Thank you all for your kindness.
I mean it.